look again

Well, I've looked again. I even kept the door open longer than I should have. You aren't interested in making something work with me. I get it. And I've reached a point where I don't want it either. I held on for way longer than I should have because of that moment on the 2nd date when I felt a jolt of "I could sit across the table from him forever". Lots of people have felt that for the ones they love and they get hurt and they have to move on... they deserve much better. I deserve someone with integrity. I deserve someone who loves me for me. I've met someone who loves me. I have met someone who wants to be with me. I've met someone who fits what I want in life - family, caring... He also makes effort to see me too - it's not all one-sided. The irony, he stopped going to church 8 years ago and doesn't know if he wants to be in it. You, were forced out of the church and say you want it. So, religion wise, I'd be in the same boat with either one of you.

Character wise? He wins.

I paid for your disney vacation. REALLY? If you had integrity, you wouldn't have let that happen. I don't regret it - especially because it's just one more reason why you and I wouldn't work.

when I think of you now, it's the song lyric "I feel nothing" from Chorus Line (I think). I really am over you. I just get tired when I think of making any effort on your behalf. I still pray for you but it's not that you'll feel my love any more. I just pray that you will have the blessings you need to be strong.

Good Luck my past Love Mr. R. I wish you well.