We've both moved on into things we wouldn't have done otherwise. I've run a triathlon. You - you're in a play. I'm convinced that you'll date your costar. You deserve to find happiness. Everyone does. I hope she's a great girl. This month, I have a couple dates setup by friends. One, he's not a member.. should i care? Another, I know nothing about him. I have to go in with an open mind.
What is hard to let go of is the feelings from this summer and thoughts of "next year we'd be together..." that "something just felt right" that I've never met a better guy that fit like you did for me...it's what I felt and I thought you did too. I didn't think those feelings were coming from me... Somewhere there is a driftwood tree in the sand that may or may-not be there next year. it's the empire state building that I don't want to let go. I thought a higher power was involved. Why would that higher power allow us to feel something false?
That's a question I don't think I'll ever fully answer well. I had a choice to run right away. I chose to ignore what I read and pretend for 4 days! Sometimes, it was hard during those 4 days - others, it was a time of hanging out with a great friend - and I would believe we were real. I wrote in my real blog - with Mr. R, I always wanted "More" - more than he had to offer, I believed we were "more". On that fateful Friday, I wanted "more" - I felt like that time would be stolen from me. So I selfishly had my "more".
Despues de pensar, despues de ver a mi dolor andar sobre el agua del mar Tibia claridad Que vi por mi calle pasar Sin saber que hacer, si sentir o pensar Solo que aun hoy sigo aun Aun hoy sigo atandome a ti Aun hoy mi amor te doy Mi cuerpo con alma Se esconde del sol De noche se escapa Aun hoy te doy Mi cuerpo con alma Aun hoy, aun hay
Que esconde la noche Va a aguardar entre nosotros dos O sentir o pensar Se me lleno de luz la noche Y es porque yo vi nadar Delfines en tu voz Y sentir sin pensar
Solo que aun hoy sigo aun Aun hoy sigo amandote a ti
Aun hoy, mi amor Aun hay dos cuerpos con alma Se esconden del sol De noche se escapan De noche se dan Los cuerpos, las almas Aun hoy, aun hay
Solo que aun hoy sigo aun Aun hoy sigo amandote a ti (amandote a ti)
Aun hoy, mi amor Aun hay dos cuerpos con alma Se esconden del sol De noche se escapan De noche se dan Los cuerpos, las almas Aun hoy, aun hay
Aun hoy, aun hay Aun hoy, aun hay ..
Why keep contacting? I guess because what I felt for you was real for me. I fell deeply. I haven't been able to let that go and just forget that. It takes time - and the suddenness of it - just made it all the harder.
Like the song I posted last... images... I went and picked up my Costco pictures today. Some of those picture, we're smiling and happy. Others, we're goofy. Did I really give up a good thing in the hopes of something better? Was it the right choice?
